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Today, I hurt.

I am writing you today from a place of hurt. A place of pain. A place of hopelessness. I'm giving you the option to opt out of reading this in case your heart, like mine, can't take it. ~    ~    ~ Today hurt.  Yesterday I hurt. Tomorrow I will hurt.  There is not a doubt in my mind that my future holds more hurt.  I can be positive. I can smile. I can laugh it off. But without fail, I always hurt.  I am trying my absolute hardest to make this work. I wake up every day with a twinge of hope that I will make it through without a single nudge of pain. Yet here I am. Day after day. Still I hurt.  Today I hurt because I know there will never be a day where I don't. I have felt a cold sting of loss many many times. I've lost my youth. I've lost my innocence. I have lost my health. I lost my faith. And just like gravity pulling the sand through the spaces between my fingers, I know that any feeling of hope and happiness is fleeting.  The