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Slow Motion

I have been stuck in a pensive state. Everything I do flows at a glacial pace. Waking up in the morning takes an hour longer than usual. I lay in bed drawing in long breaths. I slowly trace all of the curvatures and scars of my body. This is time I spend learning about new bumps, freckles, and wrinkles on my skin. No matter how much I think I know about my body, I seem to learn something new about myself every time. My senses take more time to take in information. I react a lot slower to the phone ringing or a knock at the door. Every step I take is carefully meditated. I plan exactly where each toe will land on the cold ground. Randomly I will pause and take in my surroundings. Sometimes I will look at something that I see every day and see it with new eyes. I overthink what I am going to say. I plan conversations in my head, making sure that I have a response to any variety of directions the conversation may go. Every now and then I will think about my future. I get l