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I Know My Worth

CONTENT WARNING: Body Dysmorphia  Dieting  Cancer  Disordered Eating and Thoughts  I have officially decided that I want it all.  I know this sounds like an absolute cliche, but hear me out.    Ever since I can remember I have thought that in one way or another I will have to compromise in life. It started with my body. I have had body image issues since as far as I can remember. With that came the idea that I will never deserve what thin people deserve unless I fit that ideal. I had constant little reminders about my weight and size. (mind you, I was like ANY OTHER KID) But for some reason when I went to sleep overs and couldn't fit into my teeny tiny friend's pajamas, I placed blame on myself. I watched as the women around me validated what they were eating because of some way they had burned calories. Or how they always refused second portions because they "shouldn't". I watched them get ready every day pausing and looking i